it's all in the wiring.

On life, death and everything in between…

Funny how you never realize how much you’ll actually miss someone until they’re gone. You never realize how much they actually mean to you—mean to others—until you look at what they’ve left back. Until you actually take time for everything to set in, and look at others’ reactions. You realize that sometimes someone may have more of an impact on others than you would have expected; that you yourself may miss them more than you thought.

Looking back on this week, I’ve realized that it’s been a more eventful one in my life. To have the first person in my life pass that I was actually close to, and was mature enough to really realize the true impact of a life and its passing. 

Really, life is such a fleeting and fragile thing, and it can truly slip through our fingers when we least expect it. Even when the person in question may have been quite old and lived out a full life, you never really expect the sudden weight of a death to hit you with such stealth. 

Now you look back at the impact that person has had on others’ lives, and there is so much more than you thought you knew. Maybe death sometimes airbrushes memories to create an easier portrait to remember of the person, but sometimes you actually realize that that person whom you thought never had much of a legacy to pass, actually did a lot more and impacted you a lot more than you had previously thought. That the person who never really seemed to express affection or emotions very openly, really did do so much more out of love than you really ever knew. That this person may have been so much stronger of a person than you had seen from an outside perspective. 

I find that a death really does make you think about your own life. What kind of legacy you are going to leave back, and what kind of memories you want people to have about you… It all seems so cliched but in the end it’s all so true…

Moving out… and moving on

Everyone always said that first year flies by really fast, but I never really expected it to turn out how it did. I feel like so much happened this year that O-week seems like a lifetime ago, yet I still feel like the rest of the year zoomed by. So much happened this year, that it’s actually kinda nice being able to reflect on it all. 

Today we moved out.

It feels so weird saying that… I am officially done first year, and am really no longer a first year anymore.

I’m not a FROSHIE anymore!

Wow, how time passes by so fast. It feels so weird having no more exams, and being home again. I’m in that weird state where I feel like I should be doing something all the time, after being under that constant crunch of finals. I mean… it’s actually the beginning of summer for me.

No more caf food, no more grilled cheeses from the snack bar at 11 pm… mmmm… grilled cheese. Sooo good ;)

I’m going to miss everyone so much this summer. EVERYONE lives on the east side. Sooo far, guy! 

I’m so thankful for the wonderful friends I made at Western, though. Next year is going to be so awesome, I can’t wait. I’m going to be living with the most awesome girls ever! Plus, being around so many ACF people is going to be great! LOL but hopefully we can get some work done.

I really feel so blessed, and I feel like God has provided me with such a great year. So many memories, so many new experiences. I’m going to miss uni this summer, but I know next year will be even better :)